But for me, this is also a way to gain control over food, yet another way of restricting.
I know my eating is not normal.
I am way too fat to be eating this little.
I don't want to be alone, not now when I know what love feels like. I don't know whether to tell him or not, but the fear of being left alone is breaking me.
My boy is so good and so kind to me, he is one of my favorite people in the world. He makes my heart smile. There's nothing I like more than being held in his embrace, inhaling his scent and listening to his heartbeat, feeling so safe and sheltered. Do you know what I mean? When I think of him I am filled with love and joy.
I wish everyone could feel like that, always. The world would be a much better place.