July 11, 2010
People say I'm always happy and that I'm good at what I do. What they'll never realize is, I'm a damn good actress, too. That is the way I live my life. I smile on the outside and everyone thinks I'm doing fine, but I'm always dying inside, always one step away from the edge. I can't be happy to be who I am because I don't know who I am anymore.
I don't know what I want in life. I don't know what I want right now. All I know is that I'm hurting so much inside that it's eating me and one day there won't be any of me left.
Everything that ever caused me pain, I ran away and hid from it. But now, everything is finding its way back to me and I don't know what to do. I just know that the pain I felt so long ago is now hurting ten times more.
Confessed by Meg at 8:15 PM