Why is it that we are unhappy? Don't we have everything we ever wanted? Isn't it just that we always want more than we have?
I have all I wanted. 'I want to be thin whatever it takes.' That's what I used to say. And my 'whatever it takes' meant losing friends; lying to everyone I know and love; loving my ED more than anyone else, more than me, even; suffering; being in pain; thinking of food 24/7; hating myself; having low (or no) self-confidence; low blood pressure; headaches; dry skin; hair loss; exhaustion; insomnia; fainting.
So be careful what you wish for because it might come true. I wish I wished for something better than this miserable life.