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December 20, 2017

Unkind words and letting them go

To anyone who reads this, hello. To anyone I used to know, welcome back.

It's been almost two years since I last talked to you. In those two years, life has been kind and life has been cruel, just like it always is.

Today is one of the worse days. You see, nothing really happened, I simply found out that a friend of mine got a job that I didn't. Nothing tragic, I already have a different job, but it triggered the thoughts I so desperately want to get rid of, because they make me my worst enemy. It's like a chant:

not enough
not enough
not enough

These little words, they have so much power over me. They haunt me and I can't get rid of them. And so I sit here and fight them, trying so desperately to believe they are not true. Maybe, just maybe you sit there and try to fight them, too. And so I have different words for you and me, whoever you are, wherever you are.

You're loved
You're precious
You're beautiful

You always have been
You always will be

And the right people will see
Including you